The oddest thing has happened. I'm finding someone quite fascinating. Thinking about interactions with them, both real and fancifully imagined, makes my gut clench and my heart flutter. I am almost one of those tweens in movies that gush over some hot guy and try to act all cool in his presence... Except I'm not. … Continue reading Never too old for crushes
2016. Everyone's calling it the worst year ever. How's it been for me? I have a job now. I like it. It likes me. I can't find the words to express how much this means to me. I nearly ended up separating from the husband. Some friends came over, we somehow "patched things up", I … Continue reading What a Year
Here's something that I (and I'm sure many others) have struggled with all of my life - carving out my natural identity and maintaining it. It's certainly good, sagely advice to "be yourself", but what does that really mean? And how do you hold onto yourself when you are no longer just you but one part of … Continue reading How Do You Make You ‘You’?
Well, it's finally happened - the husband has moved to the guest bedroom and refuses to sleep with me in the same bed any more because, as he so eloquently keeps asking me, "What's the point?" I should admit I was a bit blind-sided by this because we recently completed 9 years of being together … Continue reading Separation, Step One?
It's been a long while since I've written here, and my mental state can really feel the difference. I feel a bit all over the place, like my thoughts are not cohesive and structured. I've been getting my shit together lately in other spheres of life and I think adding back blogging to that should … Continue reading What’s Up, Doc?
I am currently running an experiment of doing to the best of my ability all the things my husband wants done, in a final attempt at keeping the marriage together. This isn't as awfully all-encompassing as it sounds - I follow his instructions regarding work to do everyday towards starting a business together as well … Continue reading Lose-Lose Situation My 18 Year Old Self Would Be Ashamed Of
Communication is key. You hear that like a tired cliche but it's true. Things came to a head with the spouse and I, and we spoke about divorce. We have currently decided to give it one last shot. He isn't interested in couples' therapy as he thinks this whole situation is my fault, so I … Continue reading Recap
Depression is supposed to be one of the greatest sources of inspiration for writers. I am not a writer by any means but in the past I have found that writing when sad can be cathartic, and can lead to surprising destinations. Hell, most of this blog seems fuelled by that. Lately though, I have … Continue reading Professional Procrastinator
Hello boys and girls and everyone in between, if there are any left reading my blog. It's a brand new year and lots of people are making resolutions and looking forward to a better year than 2014. Me? I'm just struggling to make it through the day, forget planning for a year. I think 2014 … Continue reading Long Time, No See
Oh dear, I honestly didn't mean to disappear for that long, but things got really low and I didn't feel like expending the energy to write them all out. Just dealing with them was tiring enough. After awhile, it's easier to just ignore and stay with the status quo than actively think about disrupting it, … Continue reading SitRep